Czech yourself

Idolizing innocence with purity of intent paves a path of contempt that sees others less pleasant as deserving your resentment. 
False modesty, fictitious piety and self pity are symptoms of entitlement’s disease.
They‘re withholding of energy accepts what is unearned yet still harbors ill will while presuming to have received a burdensome call to serve without reprieve for their self perceived goodness is undeserving of wrath and being deceived they share sparingly then grieve for it is misunderstood to be an allowance that decays as upon its value preys fear, fear of depletion if generously dispersed seeing distributions completion as an ancient curse that is most perverse being cast upon the last scraps of free grace giving way to a merciless race that in haste lays waste as in the end their confusion of rules with relationship blind them to the reality that their withholding depreciates the substance of their essence until corruption of self absorbed delusion fixates singularly upon the trance of illusion in which they have been anesthetized finally falling asleep in their dreams unstirred by the waking world that has passed them by forgetting a solution of adoption as contrived loneliness fails to elicit a single tear worth crying by denying every deaths resurrection that reconciles restoration with redemption by bringing angels to minster at trials conclusion whose reward is robbed by the pollution of regret as collusion reminds them of debt.
For is a flower shy? or awakened by springs bees buzzing by? does it not glow incandescently eliciting envy of its peers as pistols melt with dew in plain view
Or is a bird offended by unrequited love as summer springs forth giving warmth of wind carrying serenades made countless revealing suitors remain boundless
Or a tree forlorned as branches break with weight of winters breeze beckoning the end of fall? Or being reminded by auxins touch such a wound is small but grows them ever more tall
But if you cling to that dress it’s pattern upon your palms will most permanently impress but if others arms in affection you allow of your heart to caress then none will bore you as many with whitful charisma most handsome in intellect and kindness of care with intimacy finger your hair...so let their stare impress a fresh face in place of self consumed fear when you address your aversion towards lovers that undress for no longer of desire need you suppress through sexual repression stunting maturity with regression that survived as cradle of oppression making its bed a tomb of depressions for your head for when it is finally dead then it’s end will allow a new love to descend as you evolve into a woman that is distinguished from men. A home for your soul has endured its toll now let another’s hand that you hold console a hole that mends with each debt that is sold lest a festering wound of the heart grow bitter and cold until you die lonely and old having never turned smart this is the art of bringing souls together that sin pushed apart to be bold by breaking the mold of your youth betray the lies of generations misuse aspire towards the truth and soon you will find that its limits have no roof in faith alone you continue without proof.
May the hope that springs forth lend you strength to cope until then I promise a pedestal lay beneath a cloud that would choke at the end of your rope.
Release, rest, be free.
Finding comfort that forgetting me replaces visions of we that rust when penetrated by lust for us in vanity with trust restoring the depths of our humanity loosed from wicked depravity.